"...because you can't be ugly,

It felt so WRONG....

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 06:57:57 GMT

I'm doing an independent study with a Religious Studies professor this semester and we're going to work our way through the entire Oxford Handbook of Religion and Science. At 1000 pages, it's a hefty book...a hell of a lot bigger than my Quantum Physics book (which I'm also taking).

I take something to read with me everywhere I go. This book is 1000 pages of heavy reading (as opposed to 1000 of fun plot and stuff), so I need to be reading in it ALL the time. But, lugging a 1000 page book around with me...well, it's HEAVY. So...

...I cut the book apart.

It felt almost sacrilegious (pun intended) to cut up that book! I rebound each section with a colored folder, making a nice purple-green-blue-blue-green-purple sequence for the six sections. Still. I CUT IT UP! Ack!

Go with my gut

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 05:26:32 GMT

I've been looking at bicycles on craigslist, considering getting one. I saw a really nice women's bike for sale for CHEAP and called the guy. I was heading over to see it, but I just got this feeling. So, I called my girl's lover (her phone was off) and left a message with the address of where I was going. The closer I got to the guy's address, the more it didn't feel right. All of a sudden I thought, "You know, if you feel weirded out enough to have a safe call, it means that you really don't feel safe. Turn around and GO HOME." I did. [side note: I did call the guy and let him know that I wasn't coming and probably wouldn't come at all. This was one of those times where I deliberately lied and said I had had a small emergency...rather than saying the idea of meeting him was creeping me out.]

This got me to thinking about safe calls in our community. We encourage them. But, in reality, if we need a safe call, doesn't this mean that we're exhibiting risky behavior by playing with someone or going into a situation that we don't really trust in the first place? We would we DO that? Don't get me wrong...I've used them and been the safe call for someone else as well as dated plenty of guys I've met on the net. But, these were the thoughts running through my head.

Old friend

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 05:17:44 GMT

This weekend, I got a phone call from a friend who I thought had faded away. I haven't heard from him in about a year and a half. He was a lover and bandmate back when I was halfheartedly messing around with the death metal band, Rotting Earth. *chuckle* [side note: it's probably a good thing it didn't really work out 'cause I don't think I could have held a straight face for the duration of the gig.]

We'd stopped being lovers when he met someone and fell in love. But, we remained friends and kept in contact for a while. Then, he deleted his myspace profile and stopped answering the phone. I figured it was because of, or for, her (and was right).

At any rate, he's still with her in some odd way that's not really clear, but he's picked up contact with me again. It's nice to hear about the improvements he's made in his life. The biggest things is: he's enlisting in the Army. This is a huge thing for him and will improve his chances of having a decent life, even if they do send him to the dessert. He's very excited. He passed the entrance test and now has the physical. If he passes that (I don't see a problem), they'll send him off for some schooling, then to bootcamp.

I'm really happy for him as he sounds more confident and happy than he has in a long time. I'm not totally comfortable with him contacting me without his gf/fiance/SO knowing, but since we're a continent apart, I don't see how she really can object much. He and I have a bond...you know how you meet someone and just 'click'? We did. He's a nice guy and very intelligent, so we talked a LOT. We don't see eye to eye on several things, but I never felt defensive or inclined to argue with him.

I hope he stays in touch. I've missed him.

Sisters

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 02:47:03 GMT

I got my red dress! In five minutes FLAT, no less. It was the first one I pulled off the rack. It looks GREAT and I can wear it for other stuff, too. Sun dress kind of thing with a little jacket. The color is just right...I can even wear the jacket with my fire corset, the color matches so well!

I also went to the costume shop and got white face makeup. I still don't know what I'm supposed to be able to wear as far as makeup is concerned. I have a copy of the Policy and Procedure Manual, but it says nothing. I emailed the Mistress of Novices, but haven't heard back (I may have used an email that doesn't get checked often). I've just asked on the group board...

I really am struggling to choose two Big Sisters. I would choose Mother Abbess, but I know that she's swamped moving and I don't want her to feel that just because she's my friend, she has to say yes. Besides, one of the whole points behind me doing this is to make NEW friends! I really like several, but still don't feel I know anyone well enough to choose. Perhaps after this weekend, which will be a BIG event, I'll have a better feel. We'll be doing a bar crawl on Saturday night and the Red Dress Event is on Sunday night. So, I'll be spending hours with people.

The event I'm talking about can be seen on our front page.
http://www.azsisters.org/

GLLA hotel aggravation

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 20:17:44 GMT

All taken care of, once I was able to get someone on the phone. Once speaking with her, it took about 30 sec as she saw the problem on the account immediately. So, kudos for the staff, even if I was on hold for a bit.

Mysterious ways

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 19:23:55 GMT

I just found out, but looking at other stuff, that student insurance has an included dental plan. I had no idea. So, now, I can look at 1) annual cleaning and 2) the cracked tooth. Can't really afford the latter, but hey...

Getting around

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 01:10:03 GMT

I walked to campus today. It's two miles. It took me an hour to get from my door to my professor's office. Apparently I walk slow. LOL It wasn't a bad walk, although my backpack got heavy and left shoulder started to hurt from the weight a bit. The day was fairly cool, if humid (for us). Maybe I'll make a habit of it, especially since I decided to not get a parking sticker this year. I don't think I could do it in the heat of the day (I actually got up at 7 this morning! I headed to campus about 9:15). My Quantum class is in the evening, so I'd be leaving at 4 in order to make it. That's still pretty hot right now.

They're doing away with the campus shuttle that takes you from the cheap(er) parking lot to campus and on around campus, so the advantage of that time saved is gone. However, there's another set of neighborhood buses that are free that run. One is in my neighborhood just up at the corner and they work on a flag-down system. So, I just go out there and flag the one I want down. I'd meant to do that today...walk until the bus caught up with me. But, I got lost in thought and forgot to keep an eye out for the bus APPROACHING me. I saw it clear as day...after it'd passed. *chuckle* They're really cleverly named. The bus system is called the Orbit and each route has the name of a planet, Mercury thru Jupiter.

I'm putting some thought into a bicycle. I do need some more exercise (my leathers are tight!). Anyone know of a good place to buy a cheap, but decent, bicycle?

Red Hot Salvation

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 23:51:02 GMT

Don't forget, this Sunday is Red Hot Salvation, the biggest party the Sisters have thrown yet and the proceeds go to the Bill Holt Clinic for children with HIV/AIDS.

For more information on the Bill Holt Clinic see below, and for more info on the event, go to azsisters.org. You can buy your tickets in advance from there online, and bring your cash for raffle tickets because there are some amazing baskets being put together for the raffle portion of the fundraiser. I wish I could remember some of the many prizes we've had donated, but I'm still burnt out from the move.

So I hope to see you there in your best red frock....no matter what your gender! (and for the men who just can't conceive of wearing a red dress no matter what the cause, put on a red thong, a red robe, a red toga, or something else in the spirit of the red dress!

Don't have the perfect red dress or time to shop for one? Don't worry, one of our visiting Sisters from around the world (even coming from France) will be in the Sister's dress barn to sell ya one at the door. It IS a fundraiser after all ;)

The Grand Canyon Sisters are honored to be dedicating the proceeds of Red Hot Salvation to the Bill Holt Pediatric HIV Clinic at Phoenix Children’s Hospital.

The Bill Holt Clinic at Phoenix Children's Hospital is the only comprehensive pediatric HIV clinic in the state of Arizona, providing comprehensive care for children and adolescents exposed to or infected with HIV.

The clinic, founded in 1994, is a multidisciplinary program providing family-centered care. A team of specialists works together at the visits to provide specialized medical care, nutritional support, child life services, and psychosocial support. The team works together with families to maximize the health of children/adolescents affected by or infected with HIV. The clinic provides testing of exposed infants, children, and adolescents. The clinic offers support groups with fun activities and education for children and teens, and encourages parents to attend in a separate group to share concerns and experiences.

Summer camp activities are available at Camp Honor and Camp Incredible, which are also attended by clinic staff, to provide medical support and interact with patients in a fun environment.

Perinatal consultations are available for pregnant mothers with HIV to answer questions about the upcoming delivery, specialized care for the baby and to ensure seamless care.

The clinic has been involved in research as a former PACTG sub-site with the University of San Diego, with clinical trials along with Southwest Center for HIV/AIDS as well as other projects.

For more information on the Bill Holt Clinic, please visit their website at
www.phoenixchildrens.com/medical-specialties/bill-holt.html

Odd spam

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 05:46:53 GMT

So, I'm getting spam about seroquel. It gives the impression that there's a lawsuit about people who developed diabetes, blood sugar disorders and pancreatitis while taking it. Funny thing is...I had all these...before I had my surgery, after which, I started taking seroquel! I don't have any of them now and haven't for years.

Learning and growth

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 05:37:44 GMT

anne and I have spent a great deal of time talking, especially this weekend as we had five days straight together. The daily contact issue has been resolved. she and I learned many things from this and just this one thing has been phenomenal for our growth. I am grateful.

I learned...

...to look at myself FIRST. If I had kept track first, before making judgments, I would have seen that on days when anne IMed or emailed, it wasn't registering in a meaningful way that I'd gotten daily contact. This is something I didn't know...and the manual will be changed to reflect that I need phone or personal contact from my slaves whenever possible on a daily basis. Even if that contact is just a voice mail. I find this interesting because I don't need this from my friends or uncollared slaves; there's something that has become different about her. In my head, I know that is logical, but as it apparently happened gradually, it never really registered. It is a GOOD thing!

...If the Master isn't getting the results she desires, the order was incomplete or not correct. My order needed to be adjusted. I feel dumb here as this is something we teach in Butchmanns. Again, had I looked at myself first, I'd have known how to adjust.

...Even in my journal, I need to keep entries about conflict in "I feel" kind of statements and not judgment statement. This is because, even though we've discussed the issue, my partner might still not quite get what I'm trying to say and be hurt or put on the defensive even though I don't intend to go there. I know this, too, so again, I feel dumb. But, it is what it is.

Life is good!

Home!

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 05:24:56 GMT

I'm home from GLLA. It was an odd, small event...enjoyable overall. Our two classes were attended by small handfuls but they were just the people who needed to be there, so we are very happy! We made some new friends...got to know others better...and visited old ones.

We were asked a question this weekend...one that we've been asked before by others...we're thinking about it and asking some questions of our own before making a decision. I know, I know...suspense...

My boys (cats) seems VERY happy to see me. Many, many thanks to slave cheri for the last minute care! Don't worry about the quilt...I think they hack up fur balls on purpose when I'm gone.

Finally, many thanks to Master Wolf and his pack. I'm very glad our paths have crossed and I hope we walk together for some time.

Postulant!

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 07:27:43 GMT

I am now a Postulent of the Grand Canyon Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence. YAY! It seems, right now, that my name will be V'gina d'Flambé of the sharp and pointy teeth.

Worried a bit about Lucky

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 08:02:07 GMT

Lucky has had slightly bloody diarrhea for 24 hours. He acts perfectly fine...normal grouchy yet lovable and still playful. He's eating and drinking, too. I've looked around online and most sites seem to indicate that this is a fairly common occurrence in cats. He's an indoor cat, so the likelihood of it being a parasite is low. I found one of the chewed off mylar strips today. I'm betting the rest are under the bed and so I don't think he's having trouble passing one (plus it seems that would be more like constipation). The most likely cause, I feel, is a food allergy/intolerance. I actually noticed yesterday that he ate more of this one kind of canned food than normal, in fact, he usually eats dry so for him to eat more than a few licks of the wet is unusual in and of itself...and he ate half the can. So, I've packed that away to give to anne for her cats.

Even so, I'm going to be gone this weekend. The slave girl who has volunteered to keep an eye on him will be coming by tomorrow morning and I'll chat with her a bit. I don't leave until later thursday afternoon...so if it IS food, it should be cleared up or obviously better by then, I'd think. If it's still bad on thursday, I'll consider taking him to the vet and having him boarded for the weekend. Still, I'll go get a carrier and some cash out in case she has to take him to the vet.

He's one of my babies...so I'm trying not to panic too much. This has actually happened before and he turned out ok. But MAN, does it STINK.

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Dream

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 02:32:39 GMT

Last night, or more correctly, this morning, I dreamed about having had a baby. Past tense, specifically. So, in my dream, I didn't have the baby, but instead had MEMORIES of having a baby. When I woke up, I literally struggled for a bit with which memories were factually true. It was kinda creepy.

In the dream, I was interacting with a boy about the age of three or four with white-blond hair like I had as a child. His name was Christopher and he was born on September 24th...apparently in 2004 or 2005. The memories of the pregnancy and birth were hazy; apparently there was something going on with me during it that made life slightly unreal/surreal. I distinctly remember being thin and not overly large while pregnant. I remember having decided to give him to his father, Jamie (the ex) because it was not my chosen path to be a mother. There was no guilt involved in the decision whatsoever. I kept in contact with the boy, interacting more as a aunt figure than a mother. He was being raised well, and I had no desire to change the arrangement.

Another odd thing, as I was coming awake at the end of the dream, I was telling someone that I'd dreamed of him before. So, there was a knowledge that this was the continuation of an earlier dream that was connected to this one. Only, in my waking reality, I don't remember the first dream. I've searched my journal and the last recorded pregnancy or baby dream was on 4/10/2007. That was a nightmare where I was being told that I had to delivery the baby but I was refusing to do so...so then they threatened me with a very big hook.

The dream I had last night was, over all, pleasant. I was happy with the decision I'd made, knowing that I'd been true to myself by making it. I find it significant that I know his name AND his date of birth. I got Sept. 24th in the dream specifically...the year is a guess based on the age of the child. So, I'll go and research Sept 24th.

On Sept. 24th, 2007, I wrote only one LJ post. It was about my guardians. I'd just had a conversations with Ferkwa and Socho. I also mention my Owl, but not Grandfather, Ocelot or Crow.

I don't know if it's significant that Jamie B died on Sept. 28th. I don't think so, as the dates don't match.

09/24 = 6 in numerology (mine is an 8). However, I'm not sure if the 6 is valid for a birth number since I don't know the year for certain, but perhaps it didn't come with a year because it didn't need a year. For this birth number: You are family-oriented and have a talent for settling disputes between people to the satisfaction of both sides. You somehow know the middle ground. Your lesson in life is to work with the whole subject of balance. You must come to truly understand the ancient and fundamental principle of opposites that seek harmony. Whether the realm is the emotions, caring for others, finances, work, or play, you must learn where you can be of service, exactly what you can do, and what are your limits. You have a considerable amount of artistic talent. You have a deep appreciation of beauty and art. You are highly responsible and will do without in order to fulfill a debt. Your focus is on relationships. You want to help others, and have a talent as a healer and could make a profession of the healing arts, either as a nutritionist, alternative health therapist (acupuncture, massage, for example) or doctor. You need to know you are appreciated. You are given to flattery and vulnerable to praise. Criticism, on the other hand, leaves a very damaging impression on you. You take it deeply to heart. You will sacrifice your own comfort to support and help others. You are generous, kind, and understanding. You can be highly emotional and given to extremes in sympathy and sentimentality. You must learn to provide more than merely a shoulder to cry on. Study and the development of your healing skills brings you great rewards in life.
http://www.decoz.com/numerology-Course-04.htm

Christopher = 2 in both consonants and vowels in numerology, as does my first name.

Meaning from vowels: With a 2 Soul Urge, you have a deep inner need for love and harmony in your life. Resolving problems using mediation and diplomacy produces a warm sense of achievement. When you avoid the pain of stress and conflict, you are well on the road to feeling fulfilled.
http://www.astrology-numerology.com/num-soulurge.html

Meaning from consonants: You dream of close and meaningful relationships, cooperation with those around you; family and friends. You want to be a peacemaker and mediator. You present an image that you are a very pliable and easygoing person who would be very easy to get along with.
http://www.astrology-numerology.com/num-innerdreams.html

You know how the search bar remembers text you've searched before? I have several things that begin with "september 24": "...in history," "...sun sign," "...star sign," "...weezer" and "...th star sign." I've obviously looked this up before but don't yet remember what for...or for whom. There's nothing in my journal about it, as far as I can tell. Nothing under any of those things seems to stand out at me.

Nothing stands out at me about Libra (western astrology) or the Harvest Moon (sun bear astrology). The September equinox occurs, on the rare occasion on September 24(UTC), with the last occurrence 1931. The next date will be in the year 2303.

Well, all that research and really, nothing that jumps out. I'll contemplate more.

Dreaming that you have a child that you don't have in real life can represent:

A feeling of responsibility for something or someone else in your life
A need to pay more attention to your needs or take better care of yourself in some way

Boys
Any dream that you have that features boys in any activity is a good omen and bodes well for the dreamer in whatever he/she is undertaking at the present time. Of course, if the boys are injured, or otherwise beset, then you must take the dream to mean an ill omen.

blond
Consider what blond represents to you, and specifically what came to mind when you saw it in your dream. Some possible meanings include buoyant personality, fun, light, ditzy, popular, beautiful, vain, superficial, relaxed or easy-going, certain ethnicities.

SON determined protective feelings
SON investing your hopes
SON sons of man = descendants

*sigh* I just don't know. Perhaps I can return to it tonight and talk to him.

Fruit report - of sorts

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 02:27:22 GMT

slave_2b , you are required to do this, since you just LOOOOOVE my fruit reports. ;-p

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Apple

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Fruit report

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 00:31:49 GMT

The seedless 'personal' watermelon from Safeway, after leaving in on the counter for two days and in the fridge for several days, is to DIE for. Sweet, flavorful and very juicy. YUMMY.

So, how do they grow seedless watermelon anyway? Watermelon plants come from seeds. Of course, everyone knows that there really ARE seeds in seedless watermelons, but they're white and soft and so are easily edible.

From: http://aggie-horticulture.tamu.edu/extension/newsletters/hortupdate/may00/h5may00.html

"The obvious question asked about growing seedless watermelons is: "How does one obtain seed of a seedless watermelon?" Obviously, you cannot save seed from a seedless watermelon. So, where do the seeds come from? Simply stated, the number of chromosomes (the threadlike bodies within cells that contain the inheritance units called genes) in a normal watermelon plant is doubled by the use of the chemical colchicine. Doubling a normal (diploid) watermelon results in a tetraploid plant (one having four sets of chromosomes). When the tetraploid plant is bred back, or pollinated, by a diploid or normal plant, the resulting seed produces a triploid plant that is basically a "mule" of the plant kingdom, and it produces seedless watermelons. Seed of seedless varieties are available from most major seed companies."

So, they are genetically engineered. I never knew that. And, they're "sterile", in this case meaning they aren't able to reproduce themselves (because of a lack of seeds) are and are genetic crossbreeds both similar to how we get mules (a sterile cross of a female horse and a male donkey).

Interesting tidbit: According to the wiki for mule, The term "mule" (Latin mulus) was formerly applied to the infertile offspring of any two creatures of different species.

What I want - finances

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 00:22:09 GMT

The Law of Attraction is based on the idea that if you want something, you ask for it, visualize and behave it is real and then be open to receiving it. From http://positivesharing.com/2007/03/the-law-of-attraction-is-real-the-movie-the-secret-is-fake/

"Changing your thinking changes nothing out there, in the vast universe surrounding you. It changes something inside of you. Changing your perception, your focus, your emotions and your thinking from negative to positive (from what you lack to what you want) has an enormous effect on your motivation, energy and creativity and that’s why you will then be more efficient working towards your goals. It’s that simple."

So, here is what I want as far as finances and being financially secure:

I want to do very little work, be able to follow my own odd schedule and make enough money that I have everything I need and want, can provide significantly for the needs and wants of my FOO and FOC and donate to charities and fund projects in huge amounts. I term this being 'stupid rich'. I want to be stupid rich all from very rewarding activities that come naturally and with a great deal of fun.

Affirmation to counteract False Core Beliefs:

I am worthy of being stupid rich.

I am having FUN becoming and maintaining being stupid rich.

This process is easy and comes naturally to me.

Quote - what I think of me

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 23:31:54 GMT

"All that matters and becomes the "matter" of my experience is what I think of me. What other people think of me is none of my business, and non-conducive to the construction of being the very best me I can be." - Dean Fraser

The spirituality of Master/slave and kink

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 23:29:32 GMT

Someone on fetlife quoted me as the premise of a quote about Ms relationships being spiritual. They asked for more input from people and so I started writing. I meant it to be brief, but this is what I was led to say. This is my version of what we teach in Butchmanns. I've asked SlaveMaster for his comments and critique...and if he would allow me to post them. I hope he will.

At any rate, this is what I posted on the forum.
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I feel that each person comes into life having demanded to be given skills with which to use and follow in order to pursue becoming spiritually aware. This pursuit, to me, is the meaning of life...of everyone's life. Not all of us, however, will do it and thus for many, the experience of life is missing the target. That's not a bad or good thing; our experience is what it is and that is our Sacred Contract.

By being kinky (having fetishes) and Leather/Ms (having power dynamics), we have been given specific tools with which to pursue Self awareness and further ourselves along our spiritual path. Aren't we blessed that the path to enlightenment can be such FUN!? (In actuality, the path is SUPPOSED to be fun.)

Becoming spiritually aware (enlightened) is a three step process. First, we must find a tribe; a group of people who support us, teach us and help us gain these skills. In exchange, we are willing to adhere to the tribe's rules and expectations in order to receive the safety of the group. For many of us, the kink/Leather community is our tribe. I know it is for me.

At some point, we begin to see that we have specific goals in mind for ourselves. We create a 'bulletin board' of sorts where we start to list these goals. An important point here is that happiness is on this list as a goal in and of itself. During this time, we begin to develop our Ego separate from the tribe. Jung called this individuation. We find that there is nothing that we can't do, if we are willing to pursue it strongly enough. We also develop in such as way that we no longer need the tribe and so we are are not inclined to follow their rules; we don't need the safety they provide. It doesn't mean the the tribe is right/wrong, that we are right/wrong; we simply grow more assured and stable and thus leave or distance ourselves.

We enter this phase of Ego development where we pursue our goals on the board. For many of us, this is about really getting what we want (or at least what we think we want). We may look for meaningful Ds or Ms relationships. We may look to hone special skills. We may look to presenting or running for a title or some such. And, we're still pursuing happiness as a goal. We have developed healthy Egos, are beginning to understand the Self and how these fit into our kinks and daily lives.

At some point, we might realized that we are not quite reaching the deep happiness and fulfillment we seek by pursuing it outright. We begin to notice that there is something else going on; there is the voice inside that is speaking quietly, leading us down interesting paths through our kink and unique relationships. Some call this voice their connection with a Divine, so call it intuition. No matter what it's called, it always has our destiny in mind. For some of us, we only reach that destiny through our kink and dynamics. These are tools with which we have ecstatic experiences; we connect with a part of ourselves that cannot be invoked in any other way. We begin to realize that this voice and that invocation are related and, in order to be fulfilled, we must surrender our now developed healthy Egos to where that voice leads us. At this point, we realized that happiness in not a goal, but a by-product of being fulfilled by surrendering to that voice through the use of our tools.

In surrendering ourselves, both Master and slave, we find ourselves. Masters are destined to lead slaves and slaves are destined to serve Masters, or any other arrangement that calls your Heart and Self. Our kinks and relationships are VITAL in this process, just like creating art is vital to the artist or interpreting numbers is vital to the scientist. This is how we evolve.

Thus, I feel that Master, specifically the kind Mastery experienced in Master/slave relationships is MY calling. I made the Sacred contract to come and BE this, to experience this, to live this. This is what my community believes, or at least it's my personal interpretation of it. It is not a religion; it is a path that can be intertwined inside and around any religious beliefs we might have.

This is what I mean when I say that Ms relationships are spiritual. This is one path of a myriad of paths people can take to self awareness and enlightenment.

I know that was long, but you asked for more. ;-)

Master Fire

Improper use of WOOF!

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 09:54:42 GMT

Woof, in our community, can be used to mean any number of things...all GOOD. Bucky needs to get with the program. Poor Satchel.

Metaphysics Master's Thesis

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 06:08:50 GMT

I received permission to write my Master's Thesis for the Metaphysics degree on Rites of Passage. I told them that I really don't have a thesis statement (a sentence that describes what I'm trying to show) for it yet, however. I added that I feel that we have lost contact with rites of passage as a modern society, but I'm not quite sure that's true. But, at the least, I just can't shake the feeling that we're doing it wrong...or that there's something missing.

Wedding...

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 06:06:17 GMT

The wedding was beautiful; a small, private family affair. I was a bit nervous at first. It's funny when I do and don't get nervous. When I teach...no problem. When I spin...no problem. I only get nervous when I have a real attachment to 'doing it right'.

I really liked the ceremony they wrote. I added an introductory paragraph about the value of witnesses. The prayer they found and altered is very touching. I think that I will add this to my BoS as a possible template for other weddings.

I won't include the vows they wrote...those are private and between them!

This REALLY puts a burr in my butt about getting the Metaphysics degree complete...or at least the Master's portion. When all the coursework and the Master's Thesis is complete, I'll be ordained.

The search continues...

Sat, 16 Aug 2008 13:14:21 GMT

Well, I've noticed that I have yet to hear back from roman slave guy. Too bad. I did, however, recieve this, along with a chat request:

Hi love the pictures and love to serve you real time,lets talk soon from [name].
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:-/ He's from Michigan. How is that suppose to be service in real time?

What a day

Sat, 16 Aug 2008 13:12:26 GMT

Well, I got up early to get a bunch of stuff done. I thought I was supposed to my disbursement today, but couldn't because I haven't registered...because there's a hold on my account that I was expecting the disbursement to take care of. And round and round we go...

So, I got up early (10AM!) and called about the hold. Turns out, it's only a hold on my transcripts, so I should have been able to register. I hadn't even tried because I saw the hold there! I called the Religious Studies department to find out what class to register for in order to have the independent study. I then registered for that one as well as for a Quantum Physics class. Finally, I found out that disbursement starts on MONDAY, so I'm not getting it late at all.

By the time all this was done, I was feeling really, really groggy. I double checked and, sure enough, I'd taken my NIGHT meds instead of my day meds. I had to cancel my evening plans and go to bed. I slept a good six hours. Then I took my day meds and ran some errands.

So now, I'm WIDE AWAKE, even after taking my might meds again. *sigh*

Tomorrow should be fun. I'm going to the dinner and anniversary party at APEX. Between dinner and the party, Dragon Fire is going to perform (which means me and joe spin fire and other poi).